Are u into horoscope?

Out of curiosity, for the past 3 months, i've been checking my monthly horoscope. Well... i couldn't remember if they all happened but they had mentioned so many things of which one or two bound to occur. Maybe coincidence? Maybe not.

Was feeling kinda emotional today. the accumulation of certain repressed feelings seemed to got the better of me. but now it's back to normal - suppressed.

It's not very healthy isn't it? But i realise i have an immense difficulty in communicating my inner thoughts and feelings to others. Even if i'd scripted it and reeled the whole conversation in my mind, more often than not, i'ld swallow them back. Or, i'ld say it in a total mess.

As usual, jus like any other libra, I had a mini debate with myself and I on the possible reasons for the prolonged duration of periodical depression and the SOLUTIONS!!!
After much attempts, i've concluded - I don't Know *shrug* and i should jus focus on what's important now - the exams...

Pretty useless debate huh... haha...

In my pathetic attempt to resolve my inner conflict, i decided to consult the horoscope website that my housemate had sent me yesterday. And... some of the points resonate in my mind and now i know, i'm not the only one.

"Frequently, with all these gifts, the one to suffer is the Libran himself. This is because, if you're going to spend your life with the kind of acute awareness of everybody else that Libra's got, you don't have a chance very often to express your own emotions honestly. And this is Libra's biggest problem. He often finds his own emotions very painful to deal with, because they so frequently contradict the ideal of the Good, the True and the Beautiful. Libra likes to think that emotion should always be pleasant, agreeable, loving, harmonious. When he feels things like anger, hatred, jealousy, intense desire, it frightens him. One shouldn't feel such things. He often carries a pretty sizeable guilt complex around him, over all those nasty things that churn around in the secret soul.

In a nutshell, Libra often represses his own emotions mercilessly, both because they conflict with his image of how people should be, and because they get him into trouble when he shows his real feelings. His unreal world of perfect harmony and companionship often becomes so unreal that it's impossible for him to deal with ordinary human conflict. And repressed emotion like that, sooner or later, surfaces in a variety of unpleasant and indirect ways - like depression and physical illness. Or like secret and unintentional snipes at the people he's trying hardest to be pleasant to. Then he says the worst possible thing at the worst possible moment, and doesn't even realize what he's done. His pent-up anger and hostility have come out in an indirect way, and he's usually the last one to know he's doing it, until he's lost all his friends in the process.

Libra also often has a great problem with what he calls his selfishness. It's hard for him to assert his own wishes without consulting everybody first. Now, Libra is pretty notorious for the famous indecisiveness he's said to possess. But it isn't real. It isn't as though he had no ideas about his own wishes or own tastes. Left alone, Libra can be pretty quick to make choices. It's just that when he gets around somebody else, he keeps trying to adjust his choice to get the maximum cooperation. In part, it's because often he doesn't really care that passionately about having what he wants, it's more important to him to have company. He's made his choice, and it's to choose harmony. In part, he often feels vaguely guilty for wnating something, because it might be selfish. So he makes an effort to consider the other person, and he winds up caught in between. And in part he thinks aloud. Libras often work out their thoughts by talking to others; in the end, they make thier own decidions, but their thinking processes often crystallize in conversation. It's a good idea not to take a Libran's statement too literally when you're in mid-discussion. He's usually trying things on. Later, when he's alone, he'll work out what he really think."

Jus to end this very long entry,

"Maybe he recognises some secret in life that others don't see: that it's possible to be more than we are, better, more Good, more True, more Beautiful"

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