did u experience the times when we were young, hoping to grow up faster. putting on your mom's make up or clothes and wearing her heals? well... i did wish to grow up a little faster but not to the extend of wearing my mom's clothes. i'm jus too scared to try them. haha... other than her heals, i tried her specs. haha... sound silly? i always thought wearing specs is very cool. how silly of me. haha.. now i'm stuck with it! anyway, when i put it on and look into the mirror. haha.. i thought i look like my mom. why everyone says i look like my dad? anyway... childhood memories are the sweetest for most of us i believe. i grew up in a huge family. and in addition to that, my cousins live in the same block! so most of my childhood was spent playing with the guys. i cant describe how happy i was and how protective they were. i love every single bit i spent with them. growing up with them was indeed the most enjoyable part of my life. it's kinda sad that lately everyone is busy with their own life. but still... life is still full of joy since i have something that i can hold on to whenever i'm sad.

when i was around 17, haha... i jus hope time will return back to the good old days. but of cuz such things doesn't happen in reality. growing up and hanging around with my sec sch friends is enjoyable. i'm sure all of u will agree that sec sch friends are the best. not that the rest are not. now i'm 20 and i can only dragged about it. haha... but now that i'm so drown in my work, i guess that's not stopping me from moving on.

i love to hang around with kids, cuz they believe in fairytales. they have not been exposed to the cruelity of life and they are so innocent. adorable little kids unaware of wad's surrounding them. i was watching a korean movie with some friends at my place. from when we started watching, it's all about adultery. and i was so disturbed by that movie. what about those fairytales that we have been told of? yes, i'm sure some people did find the right one for them and it's very heartwarming to see old couples holding hands, laughing while strolling along the yarra river, in the bus, cafe or anywhere. the most evil ones that i remember is the evil step mom, or the witch with the poison apples. well... that added some truth to fairytales but what about the rest. anyway... haha... come to think of it, there's so many different kinds off people out there and it's impossible to list down every single kind. fairytales are for the kids, for those who have met their true one, for those surrounded by innocent kids, and for those... ... ...

i believe in fairytales once a while when i see hope in life... even for a split sec when i see the smile of an innocent child, i feel that life is so wonderful.

jo: if your kids going for excursions, i volunteer ya.

although i'm 20, i still hope to live in the mind of youngster. when one is not exposed to any of the sadness of life, in a world of her own, believing that everyone is kind and and and the world is an amazing place. hahaha... how irrational... maybe... the only way to live happily is to ACCEPT. i'm not prepared to... till then, i'll rather be drown with tons of work. busy busy busy.

exams coming. I'm so happy to be busy! *weird girl ya* you never understand how much joy i experience from jus working 24 hours non stop. cuz you dun no...