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i never knew i was such a pessimistic person. really... and being that had crippled many things in my life. i shall start thinking positively, like wad my friend say, making my disadvantage into an advantage. hee... have some confidence mate!!!
i've decided to give it all... it's either now or never. no more hesitation or thinking too much... nek... everything i do from today onwards will be my best! that's the goal i set for myself. I'm going to multitask and i'm going to do that well. so much for talking. it's time to put plans into action. haha...

"i can do it" - u will when u believe.

anyway... to carry out the promise i had to myself and my friend, i decided to get my lazy bum out of my comfort zone and i went to school. after having breakfast, i went to the sport centre 10 mins late. well... i thought i saw my friend inside, so i went in. to my dismay, it was someone else. nvm, since i'm in the class, i cant jus leave cuz it's so rude and distracting. the steps he did today wasn't as strenuous as before so everything wasn't too bad... but as there's odd number in the class, my instructor paired everybody up but i had to do a single. haha... guess wad? in the end, i became his partner and had to demonstrate the moves with him. haiyo... first time stand right in front of the class, felt quite shy... haha... and we are suppose to stand side my side and hit our bums towards each other... haha.. so paiseh... den i think i did it quite hard... haha.. den he say..."gently..." damn maluating lar... kekeke... after that, i tried to go to the back of the class and he called me back. -.-" den he mentioned... haha... "i've got the smallest person in my class as my partner." hmmm... i wonder if that's a compliment. cuz if someone say u are a HUGE person, would u be happy? haha... hmmm... i'm not too sure about that. depending wad he's refering to. if he say i've a huge heart... that would be nice, a huge appetite... i have to admit... a huge... haha... i shall jus leave it there... yes, i'm small, physically, but dun underestimate me okie... hohoho... does it sound like a threat? for a sec, i felt empowered. haha, by my own delusion...

anyway... i skipped lecture today again. but... i'm going to stay at home to do some catching up with that subjects. going to start working hard... everybody says i'm a slacker. i dunno if that's a compliment again. cuz if he says i'm slack but i produce results, that means i'm smart isn't it? haha... but he says i'm slack, it can also refer that i'm a lazy person. well... u bet i am. haiya... this is getting nowhere... kekeke... wadever~

on my way home yesterday, angga was telling me the essay title of the subject "The world is an amazing place" okie.. that's a political science subject. the first time i heard it, my reaction was... "what duh?" haha... anyway, he was telling me the definition of politics which i can hardly remember but it's something like a power game. i dunno if i interpret it wrongly or not, it's the study of power. well... okie, this makes some sense to me in a way and i find it appealing. i hated politics, cuz to me, that's wad the government do and i have totally no interest. but anyway, one of the questions is something like "is there politics among skateboarders?" okie... i paraphrased it based on my understanding of the question. haha... an essay question like this. how will u write it? if he din explain to me about the relationship of politics and power, i would have just go "HUH? WAT DUH..." but i din... haha... i felt smart for a milli sec. haha...

ciao... gonna be a very hardworking and enthu girl...
annotated bibliography by 10 am tmr.